made it.

I survived my first day in Logan. And it wasn't completely terrible. It mainly consisted of,
-Having a job interview. (even though I'm hoping they don't hire me. I'd rather work somewhere else. is that bad?)
-Becoming an official employee of the Buckle. (I'm excited!)
-Spending a lot of time wondering what to do with myself, because I don't know anyone.
-Hanging out with my aunt and uncle.
-Going to my cousins baseball game.
-Making a walmart trip at 10:30 because I always forget something. (you'd be so proud, I found my way to walmart, and all the way back to Mendon with out my dear tomtom. this my friends is accomplishment!)

ohh the places you'll go.

i'm moving. 

and i thought i was ready.

but,

now i'm not so sure.

i'm not good at goodbyes.

and i'm definitely not ready to say goodbye to all my friends.

this hit me yesterday. 

as i was having maybe my last summer party with some of my close friends.

which i really hope it wasn't the last.

hopefully when i come home on weekends.. i'll still see all these hooligans.

because i really will miss them all terribly!

my life is going to change so much in the next couple weeks, it's unfathomable. 

i'm feeling a mix of emotions.

i'm scared out of my mind.

i'm so excited i can't contain it.

i'm anxious i'll be lonely.

i'm ready to adventure.

i'm scared i'll fail.

i'm dying to live a life of my own.

i'm not ready to let go of the life i live now.

i want to meet new people.

i don't want to lose the people i'm leaving behind.

i want to be independent.

i still want to be dependent.

i think, i'm going to be okay with the move, eventually. 

just not at this particular moment. 

here's to the new adventure. ready or not.

help wanted.

i need some help.
i need a list.
i need a list of things.
i need a list of things to photograph.
so...
any ideas? 

i've been hit.

Confused about it,
But willing & ready to spill out my secrets

Rules 

1) Write eleven facts about yourself

2) Answer the following questions the 'tagger' has set for you.

3) Provide 11 new questions.

4) Tag away, Link away & Inform away.

let's talk facts.

One: I am moving to logan in two days. and i'm going to miss my friends here terribly.

Two: I really hate milk. it's awful stuff.

Three: I will one day be a national geographic photographer. just wait and see.

Four: I wish quite often i'd find a boy to love.
Five: I want to be in lake powell. always.
Six: I'm afraid of pain. irrational or rational? I haven't decided yet.

Seven: I want to cut all my hair off. but the second I do.. I know i'll cry.

Eight: I really want an iguana. 

Nine: I am really excited for my water aerobics class in the fall.

Ten: I got a job.
Eleven: I have o.c.d. personality. bad. 

Kell, has asked..

One) Cats or Dogs: dogs. cat's are awful little beasts. 

Two) Name of your favorite Temple.: Palmyra, and Logan.

Three) Favorite Date you've ever been on and why.: i don't know if i'm willing to talk about it. it brings back some bitter feelings i now have. 

Four) The best store to buy clothes.: i usually hate shopping.

Five) Most important thing on your list of 100 things to do.: i'm still working on that list. but of what i have i'd say grow old with a boy i love. 

Six) Favorite childhood memory.: bike rides, and hiking. i don't do that often anymore.

Seven) An actor you absolutely swoon over.: joseph gorden leavitt.

Eight) Toilet paper rolled over or under.: over.

Nine) Your favorite year in school & why.: junior year. it was the most spontaneous time i've ever had.

Ten) If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be and why.: i would be more outgoing. because it would be nice to have more friends sometimes.

Eleven) Favorite board game.: i love most board games actually. 

let's hear it. 

one. what are you reading currently?

two. what inspires you?

three. popsicles or ice cream?

four. if you could have anything in the world what would it be?

five. dreamworks or disney?

six. video or still shot?

seven. what's your secret hobby?

eight. what have you ate today?

nine. can you describe something you hate in five words?

ten. what's your middle name?

eleven. fruit or veggies?

tag, you're it.

katie 

sam

kinsey

ohh the joys of looking like a hippo.

i'm sick of soft food. i don't know if i'll be able to stomach anymore apple sause, pudding, mashed potatoes, and jello. i'm dying to have real food. my face hurts. all i've done the past three days is lay in bed. i got mad at him.. and i shouldn't have. and i find i miss him a lot. i'm finding i'm scared to start my new job and move to logan on sunday. i don't want to be lonely up there. and i'm going to miss my friends terribly. i'm needing a trip out of the house. i need to do something active.

this wisdom teeth business sucks. and it's put me in a terrible mood.

movie love.

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all. 

-The 10 Things I Hate About You

college.

i'm now officially a student of utah state university. 

and i think i'm gonna like it there.

and i'm already in love with the art department. 

especially tj. 

in the first ten minutes i knew this guy... this is what he said to me.

"girl! you know how to dress yourself!! you got some swag!!  but us art people always know how to dress our selves." 

he even had a nick name for me by the end of registration.

swazzagirl. 

he should be my best friend. 

i also start training for my job in logan on monday. 

i can't wait to move up to logan. it's calling my name!!! 

to bad i have to get my wisdom teeth out on tuesday... 

so it'll be at least another week before the move.