the water faucet kind of movie.

Have you ever had a day where all you need is a bowl of ice cream, and a movie that makes you cry? Just so you can get it out, so you can feel better? today's a day like that. all i want is a bowl of my favorite blue bunny wedding cake ice cream. and to watch titanic. unfortunately.. i'm movieless. and ice creamless. 

ohh the joys of looking like a hippo.

i'm sick of soft food. i don't know if i'll be able to stomach anymore apple sause, pudding, mashed potatoes, and jello. i'm dying to have real food. my face hurts. all i've done the past three days is lay in bed. i got mad at him.. and i shouldn't have. and i find i miss him a lot. i'm finding i'm scared to start my new job and move to logan on sunday. i don't want to be lonely up there. and i'm going to miss my friends terribly. i'm needing a trip out of the house. i need to do something active.

this wisdom teeth business sucks. and it's put me in a terrible mood.

close call.

i wrecked my car today. it was awful. 

wow. really?

sometimes i wear grape juice.  all over my favorite clothes. it's lovely. 

this would be a result of three hours of sleep. yay...

aunt erma is visiting..

Lately life has been a roller coaster. a roller coaster of emotions. and i'm blaming this roller coaster on the fact that i'm on my period. (i know more information than anyone wanted to hear.. but this lovely thing women deal with once a month.. really has an effect on me..) period. aka, t.o.m. is not on good terms with me. we have a hate, hate relationship. it wrecks my body. literally. my body hurts so bad that i waddle around like a pregnant woman. it makes me emotional. i cry. i cry a lot when t.o.m visits. it also drains me of all energy. i am sooo tired. i nap. (and i hate naps). can you see how i'm a roller coaster of emotions? so i apologize if you have talked to me lately and i look like this...

because really.. this isn't an exaggeration from my point of view..

also.. laugh with me.. laugh real hard!

this. is. nasty,

think this is bad?

go google tlc strange addictions.. it's insane.

my family has been watching these videos.. and i'm disturbed.. THESE PEOPLE ARE CRAZY!!

fail

never again. will i cook anything. 

alone?

not knowing what to do with yourself during lunch. because you have no friends. 

Awkward

Two things I kinda hate..

1. People who kiss at school. I'm sorry but that's not cute for anybody!
2. When the creep guy that works at hearts hits in me. Not okay pal!

Bleh

It's one of two things.
- I'm a terrible actress
- or people are just really good at guessing that I'm not okay.

the week from not a happy place.

this has been the week. 

the week where i put on everything in my closet, but nothing looks good, and it all feels funny. 

the week when i feel alone in a crowd of my friends. 

the week where i can't fall asleep at night. 

the week where i look in the mirror, and i'm not happy with what i see. 

the week when everyone and their dog blows me off. 

wanna know something? 

i HATE feeling like this. 

hopefully next week is the week where i put something on and feel pretty and confident.

the week when i feel like a part of the group, instead of just like i'm tagging along.

the week where i sleep like a baby. 

the week where i look in the mirror, and i'm not criticizing my body, hair, and whatever else a girl can find to criticize.

the week where friends actually follow through and don't leave me with nothing to do but clean my room.

that would be really nice.