ohh the places you'll go.

i'm moving. 

and i thought i was ready.

but,

now i'm not so sure.

i'm not good at goodbyes.

and i'm definitely not ready to say goodbye to all my friends.

this hit me yesterday. 

as i was having maybe my last summer party with some of my close friends.

which i really hope it wasn't the last.

hopefully when i come home on weekends.. i'll still see all these hooligans.

because i really will miss them all terribly!

my life is going to change so much in the next couple weeks, it's unfathomable. 

i'm feeling a mix of emotions.

i'm scared out of my mind.

i'm so excited i can't contain it.

i'm anxious i'll be lonely.

i'm ready to adventure.

i'm scared i'll fail.

i'm dying to live a life of my own.

i'm not ready to let go of the life i live now.

i want to meet new people.

i don't want to lose the people i'm leaving behind.

i want to be independent.

i still want to be dependent.

i think, i'm going to be okay with the move, eventually. 

just not at this particular moment. 

here's to the new adventure. ready or not.

photo attack.

 after 4 years of pushing myself to go to seminary, and doing more make up work than i should have had to do. I GRADUATED!!

 during seminary graduation.. we learned my brother can't be left alone. because we return home noticing my dog has an attempted mullet..

 i found out what it's like to be a muscle man. yay dry suits!

boating season here i come!!!

 finally my senior pictures were taken.. after months of asking for them.

and yes i got heels. and yes.. it makes me almost as tall as my dad. and i'm not going to say how tall that is... but i love them.








so that's pretty much my life as of late.

a break from homework.

it's been six plus hours. my bottom lost feeling a long time ago. my back is aching from sitting for so long. and i'm antsy. but we've finally reached our destination. i step out into the sweet desert air. the sun immediately tickles my skin. now heading to the boat, we peal back the cover. as it's pulled back i smell a small wave of sunscreen, vinegar, and lake water. i set my feet free as i rid myself of shoes, and climb on in. the boat is then lowered into the blue green water. the next sound i hear is my favorite sound. the gurgling roar of the engine as the boat comes to life. we are now cruising across the water, surrounded by cliffs made up of orange, brown, black, and red hues. the music is blaring over the roar of the engine.  and stray water is gracefully landing on my heated skin. i quietly smile to myself. i am home.   

summer please come soon. because i long to be in lake powell.

ouch

sometimes i go boating (:
and i absolutely l.o.v.e it.
sometimes i wakeboard.
sometimes i sorta jump the wake..
then sometimes... i catch my edge.
and for those of you who have never wakeboarded.. that means.. you take a nice slap to the water.
yeah let's just say..

i have the worst headache ever.. that's from the slap and the wakeboard hitting the back of my head. (i have a pretty sweet lump...) i have never been this sore in my life.. and i'm not talking i just ran without stretching sore. i'm talking my head feels like it's gonna fall off. and my whole upper body aches. it's quite lovely. ohh and check out the bruise on my arm. sorry they're not the best pictures..

but even with all this pain.. i'd do it all over again. because well i love it (: