on your mark. get set. GO.

i don't know why.
but there's something about this song that get's my adrenaline pumping.
it's my favorite song to run to.
it get's me going when i think i have nothing left.
i guess i love the feeling of my heart rate pumping blood throughout my body to the beat of the music.
and suddenly in the middle of the song, i forget that the strain in my knees, calves, and shoulder are yelling at me to stop.
i forget that i'm out of shape, and that i probably shouldn't sprint.
i forget the world really, and i run.
i run hard.

it's only after the song ends that it all comes back to me. and i become grateful i didn't eat this morning, when i start dry heaving.

this run kicked my butt.
and it was lovely. (:
i was in the need of a good workout.

now what?

it's a miracle! i don't have homework.

 but the thing is.

now i don't know what to do with myself.

and yes 5:30 a.m. runs and i.. we are back in business. i love it (: 

and even better. i never have to go to embly's class again!!! 

a thought

maybe it wasn't such a great idea to go for a run considering
a) i have an upset stomach
b) i ran harder than i usually do.. because i'm in one of those moods where i'm just frustrated at the world. (i hate these moods)
c) i have t.o.m issues for those of you who don't understand t.o.m (time. of. month.)
d) i'm used to running at 530 when it's cold. yeah it's 85 degrees outside. and so running that makes it about 100 degrees.


yeah all these factors ended in me..
a) dry heaving and nearly throwing up.
b) tears of pain and frustration
c) getting to my hill and seeing attractive baseball players outside. and forcing myself to sprint up the hill so they don't think i'm wimpy. even though a couple minutes previous i was close to throwing up.
d) running straight to the bathroom on arrival of my home. (i didn't vomit. but i almost wish i would have. cause you know how sometimes it almost just makes your tummy feel better just to get it out.)


i'm praying tomorrow is a better day.  



p.s.

this doesn't really help with my goal to be more positive and see the good in things. and be nice. and what not. i'll try to be better listeners. because i really know how old it gets to read those blogs that all it says is whiny, negative, my life stinks, boo hoo, sob story, junk. because if your life is so terrible. get off your butt and do something about it.

so imma do that. get off my butt. and go do some good in my life. okay.

a fresh frenzy

5:30 AM runs are the best thing that has ever happened in my life. (:

it makes my day go well. a lot more smooth.

i feel great.

it's worth the sacrifice of sleep. enough said.

ha especially when i go with annika. and we talk about boys. see creepers. and then find out there was a guy found dead at the library. so we freak out, cause we could have died!! hahaa

ohh and skipping assemblies is a great thing. i learned all sorts of stuff. hahaa like..
-osculate. means kissing. ohh but the real definition would be wrestling of the lips.
good times brayden and kylee. good times. hahaa
(i guess you had to be there...)

my ghostly ipod turning on in the middle of last period durning a test. nothing like hearing john mayers voice coming out of my backpack (: hahaa


and i'm going to mary poppins at the capitol theatre tonight with the fam. it's gonna be a party and a half times ten and i cannot wait!

all i'm saying is.

today is a good day. (:

half marathon.. complete

holy cow.

a word of advice.
TRAIN. TRAIN. TRAIN. and TRAIN.

so other than the fact that i didn't train very well at all.
i felt pretty okay (:
and seeing as it was my first ever half marathon.. i didn't have to be a rock star or anything right?

next year hobble creek i will own you!!!

hahaa and me and aunt sarah hand a couple laughs. as we were about to die..
"too the next cone!!!!"
we'd make it half way and stop.. hahaa

well i think i might go take a nap now..
so i don't die at the stake dance tonight..

hahaa i can see it now.. i'm standing precisely in the middle of the dance floor. doing some epic move.. (that is all fictional. i have no epic moves..) and then i just pass out and take a nap right there in the midst of jumping/dancing sweaty teenagers..