maybe you could help me out..

i need some help.. on things to put on my senior bucket list..

yeah i struggle..

sometimes my friends mock me... (brayden)
because i gag on my ibuprofen... hahaa you try swallowing it with no water..

i swear this kid always catches me at my most awkward moments... hahaa

lalalala whatever. lalalala it doesn't matter (:

just great..

so a cute boy who i haven't talked to in...well...forever... talked to me today.
it was kind of awkward.
knowing we used to be pretty good friends. and now we aren't.
and knowing that i used to swoon over the guy.. hahaa
but hey. it was a nice little chat.
once we got past some of the awkwardness.. and that awkward hand shake... and that awkward hug.. hahaa
and i'm not gonna lie.
i quite enjoyed talking to him.
i might have to talk to him a bit more.. (: just saying.

but here's the deal.
i get home after talking to this boy.
and i look in the mirror.
and i realize my face is totally pealing. and it looks bad.
i'm mortified!!
he probably thinks i have a disease..
great.. just great..

good grief

first week of senior year? done.
holy cow. i feel old.

and i'm scared for the future. i don't want to grow up. i'm not ready.

 i love high school.      for the most part.

anyway. i hope i just go out with a bang! make some memories worth remembering.

are you picking up what i'm throwing down?

thanks blondie

Every girl wants you to be her man
But I'll wait my dear 'til it's my turn

I'm not the kind of girl who gives up just like that


yeah sometimes i feel like this.. 

i'm cool like that.

sometimes i by accident.. hit keegan in the hall way.
i also sometimes confuse nate for my mother.

i love awkward moments like this. they make life interesting.. hahaa

do you remember..?

sometimes i deep clean my room. and i find an extra credit assignment from my english class last year. from like october.. so it's like almost a year old. insane..

this paper was about the time i went and saw   .

i had almost completely forgotten about this adventure. and i laughed my head off when i found this paper.

i happened to go to this movie with brayden, alisha, and hailey.
and if i remember correctly..
-we saw brayden leaving as we were walking in. and talked him into coming and watching with us.
-i actually answered my phone in the theater, because brayden called me to ask where we were sitting. i got some great death glares.
-the movie wasn't that great.
-the movie was pretty sketchy.
-brayden could have possibly been the only guy there.
-i fell asleep. more than once. good thing brayden woke me up. hahaa
-brayden wrote down all sorts of quotes from the movie in his quote book.
-brayden said he thought about creepily holding my hand while i was asleep. just to freak me out. and lets be real i swooned at the thought of him holding my hand. and i wished he would have. hahaa
-this was before any of us could drive. so we had to be picked up.
-haliey's mom teased me about having a crush on brayden. hahaa


hahaa this was a great day. i'm glad i cleaned my room so i could be reminded of it (:

first day of school.

could have gone better.
but it wasn't the worst.

first off. i miss all  my senior friends. that are away and at college.
and holy cow. now i'm the senior!! what just happened...?
and the halls.. full of people i don't know.. that means making new friends. which i'm not very good at.
cute boys...? none.
good luck getting asked to dances. :/
lunch. still yucky.
classes..? umm i don't know how i feel about them yet.

hope the second day is better.

ohh and don't leave your favorite  chapstick  in your car. because it will melt. and you'll open it up to apply some of it to your lips. and it'll fall out like hot wax all over your favorite jeans..

summer days drifting away

last day of summer...? well spent (:

thanks annika, brayden, kylee, and tori!
it was a party!!

teach me will you?

can someone please explain to me this sport...football.
because my dearest best friend told me the other day that i'm not "sport smart..." whatever that means.
and well that's just not sitting well with me.

so someone should teach me.
cause i don't know what the quarterback does. for all i know he picks up quarters and sticks them to his back.
and fumble?? what in the world is that...?
and why to they hike the ball?? why can't they walk, run, or just sit the ball? i don't get it..
and is a touchdown the same thing as an endzone?? or are they two different things. that happent to take place in the same area of the field?


yeah kinsey was right.. i'm definitely not "sport smart"

i need some help.. anyone up for the job?? cause imma need a really, really, really good tutor.. hahaa

coming to a close

goodbye summer 2011. you will be missed.

half marathon.. complete

holy cow.

a word of advice.
TRAIN. TRAIN. TRAIN. and TRAIN.

so other than the fact that i didn't train very well at all.
i felt pretty okay (:
and seeing as it was my first ever half marathon.. i didn't have to be a rock star or anything right?

next year hobble creek i will own you!!!

hahaa and me and aunt sarah hand a couple laughs. as we were about to die..
"too the next cone!!!!"
we'd make it half way and stop.. hahaa

well i think i might go take a nap now..
so i don't die at the stake dance tonight..

hahaa i can see it now.. i'm standing precisely in the middle of the dance floor. doing some epic move.. (that is all fictional. i have no epic moves..) and then i just pass out and take a nap right there in the midst of jumping/dancing sweaty teenagers.. 

a need a breather..

i'm heading into a hectic schedule once again. the comforts of a laid back summer are over. no doing what i want whenever i want. no sleeping in until noon. i'll probably  still be staying up late. but i'm sure it'll be cause of homework. not because i'm having a good time.

but my summer schedule ends about.. tonight.

7:00-9:30ish  football game
10:30-bed time

saturday

4:00 a.m.-11:00  run a half marathon
11:00-4:30  come home and rest (i'll probably be so tired i'll sleep..like after ragnar.. i was in like a coma..)
5:30-8:30  BBQ for the little brothers baseball team
9:00-11:30  the stake dance i've been waiting for all summer!!
12:00-  a very tired breanna will be in bed. and asleep.


pretty epic.. i know..

ever just feel like.. well.. a loser?

looks like you've caught up with everyone. except me.

sometimes i feel like this..

for those of you who have not seen this movie. there's a part where someone actually sits on her.. because she's well in a sense "invisible..."

sometimes i feel like that.. "invisible.."


i am sorry for recent posts..
i feel like a mean brat..
but it's been one of those weeks..

ohh a word of advice..
see this

it's a very good idea to stop when you see them..

anxiety..?

i went to the dentist this morning.. and let's just say..  i don't like the dentist. at all. even if it is garry wilson who is in my ward and everything. don't get me wrong. i like garry. i hate dentist. are you picking up what i'm throwing down? but i get a lot of anxiety while at the dentist..

i probably look kinda like this guy.. i struggle a lot. but hey at least i don't pass out at the dentist. i'll leave that for more special occasions like.. going to the doctor (eye doctor included). or being on my period. or slamming my finger in a car door. or maybe even just being there when my sister gets her ears pierced..

if you haven't already guessed... i'm 99% sure i have a fear of pain. and i'm 99% sure that it's a big phobia.

i struggle.. but hey i'm over it. i've learned to laugh about it.

words of wisdom

a friend once wrote on facebook

hating yourself doesn't help.

thanks pal. i needed to hear that.

once again i'm sorry

last post.. yeah it was a lie.. i still kinda like you quite a lot.. but i'm dying inside.. cause well you don't love me, like you did yesterday..

i saw this

every girl has that one boy that they'll never get over. that one guy who makes you laugh all the time. the one who gives you butterflies just when someone mentions his name. the one who has his name written all over your heart. the one who you compare to everyone. the one you never get sick of talking about. the one everyone thinks you can do better than. the one you ask why her and not me. the one when you first saw him you knew you loved him. the one that in some way ends up not being yours.

 on my friends blog. and well.. this is how i feel about this guy that i want so badly to get over. but he really does make me laugh. and i still get butterflies when i see him. no matter how upset or annoyed i am at him. i don't get sick of talking about him.. even if i'm mad and not saying the nicest things.. and everyone of my friends says he's not worth it. and yes he's always talking to some other girl.

and this song would be the story of my life.

i'm singing this in voice lessons. and my teacher yesterday. said.
"you know i finally understand this song. he's just the weight of her world. and she can't let go."
then i said. "yeah and he's kinda just a jerk.."
then she said.."and she knows it too! and she's not doing anything about it!!"

then it hit me. am i as pathetic as the girl in the song?

boys are dumb learn that young.

sorry

i don't love you, like i loved you yesterday

the weirdest night of my life.. it's a big deal

have you ever seen the movie dumb and dumber?? well that movie is pretty much the story of me and my best friend.. hahaa especially last night. every possible crazy/spontaneous/insane thing happened last night.

don't believe me..? well here's what happened in a nutshell.

1. we made dinner. stroganoff to be exact

2. went stalking 

3. went for a walk

4. walked around the track once at the high school

5. yogurt bliss. mmm yummy (:

6. walked around maceys.. but we didn't even see people we know..

7. receive spontaneous phone calls.

8. went stalking again...

9. had a nice chat with kinsey's mom

10.  dropped kinsey's brother off at his friends house.

11. once again we went stalking 

12. we tried to follow trevor.. but he followed us..

13. fill my car up with gas.. but the gas pump wouldn't work... hahaa it would only happen to me.. 

14. followed an ambulance 

15. saw a fox.. i'm not kidding!! 

16. got lost in lindon 

17. picked up kinsey's brother.

18. tried to talk to jackson.. epic fail

19. drove on a scary dirt road.

20. drove through construction.. i'm still not sure if i was aloud to drive on that one dirt hill thingy.. hahaa

you probably are thinking this isn't that crazy/spontaneous/insane. 

and i guess you just had to be there...

because this was the weirdest night of my life... 

are you picking up what i'm throwing down?   

are you happy now..?

well you did it. you made me like you.
but the thing is.. i almost wish i didn't.

could you just make up your mind...?
that would make my life a whole lot easier.

are you picking up what i'm throwing down?

love, bre

2011 park city bucket list

1: sleep out on the deck

we only were a little bit cold.. hahaa but hey it was so worth it.. maybe.. hahaa the one night there was a random baby crying at like one in the morning.. we could have possibly woke the poor thing up.. but still.. and then the night kinnah woke me up like three times.. cause she apparently heard something in the bushes.. hahaa i vaguely remember yelling at her to just go to bed.. hahahaa










2: stalk cute boys on main street

see that young man with the hat.. (the one inside the store.. not the ones outside...) he was the cutest one we found... and let's be real.. he wasn't even that cute.. it was quite a bummer..






3: make a random craft
(this one was a fail.. it went uncompleted..)

4: have a photo shoot

not some of the best pictures i've taken.. but whateves.. i'm mostly over it.. okay not really.. i need to step up my game..








5: go inside the boogie man's house

 as you can see.. you go through the creeper door here.. and well in the pictures below.. you kinda see how creepy it is inside.. and how scared we were. umm can i just tell you it smelled like death in there.. yucky. the boogie man is in desperate need of a shower.. and some deep cleaning.. just saying. ohh and the picture of the three of us.. that would be my grandmas favorite picture. and i promise you i don't always look like a beast.. only most of the time.. and no we didn't pee our pants.. hahaa hannah came close though.. hahaa just kidding.

6: shop until we drop

six hours of shopping.. yuck. hahaa it was okay for the first two hours. then it just got a bit out of control..







7: call a boy on our contact lists.

 umm yeah.. let's get this clear right now.. this was totally mckinnah's idea.. and let's just say.. this only made me feel like a loser.. hahahaa because the guy i selected.. didn't even answer.. ha and i love that my cousin that is three years younger than me has a boyfriend that she can call.. and i don't hahaa makes me feel pretty cool...

8: write all our friends letters and send them in the mail

this was my personal favorite (: i felt so old fashioned!! hahaa our aunts and grandma made fun of us cause we didn't know how to use the mail system.. but guess what. now we're pretty much professional at the whole letter thing. (: seeing as i wrote like 12 kinnah wrote like 10 and hannah wrote 8.

9: watch the help

okay everyone listen up. go see this movie. it is amazing. and i encourage you to all read the book too. if you haven't. it's pretty much a life changing experience. at least it was for me. i'm telling you this is definitely in my top ten favorite movies.. i love it!!!!





10: go to the cow store! because it's the best!

everyone must go to this store. (: it's pretty much the greatest thing e.v.e.r. i absolutely l.o.v.e this store!! but then again i am a bit obsessed with cows. don't ask me why. cause that's a whole other story that i don't really care to share at the moment.. hahaa









11: get shakes and/or ice cream

mmm ice cream!! and guess where we got it...? the cow store of course!!! mmm it was quite tasty. and yes ice cream did get all over my pants, face, hands, and camera. i'm a messy eater what can i say...?



12: make some kind of treat

 oreos on a fork (: mmmmm don't even worry we went through 4 packages of oreos. 3 cool mint. 1 regular to be exact. (: and special thanks to taresa who bought us the cutest little forks. so we could eat the oreos the right way!










13: color
(another fail.. this didn't happen)

14: tan
(yep this was also a fail)

15: have a picnic
(this would also be a fail.. but lets be real we just didn't think that through... mckinnah.. ha we always go out to lunch.. how are we supposed to picnic..?)

16: go window shopping

someone please get me this hat for christmas... that would make my whole year.






(that was a joke)





17: watch a scary movie
(fail. although i still think that one robot movie that never ends was pretty creeptastic.. but whatever)

18: draw with chalk

we traced ourselves on the road. hahaa we even got aunt sarah and aunt heather to join in (: hahaa priceless!! and check out how yucky our feet got.. yeah i wanted to puke.. but hey mine aren't as bad as mckinnah's are.. and she was chilling in the road.

hahahaa and that was quite priceless.. she told me to tell her if a car came. so i thought hey i'll be funny and yell car!!! hahahaa i never saw someone freak out so much in my life.. hahaa


19: try stuff on in stores and take pictures
(fail.. we were so done with shopping that we were all butt hurt and in a bad mood.. hahaa)

20: sew
(i was really butt hurt that we didn't get to this one.. but there wasn't really room on the table.. and well we just were real busy..)

21: do sit ups at midnight thirty
( okay we always fell asleep right before this one could take place. but i did do 30 day shred with sarah! and we went on a 4 mile run (: )

22: paint nails
this one happened but the computer is making me mad and wont upload the dang picture


23: ride the trolly
we also rode the trolly and i had the cutest pictures. (stupid computer that won't let me upload my pictures.)

i miss my friends..

my roommates and counselor (: i love them soooo much!! we had some fun times. and we WILL continue to have fun times. even if we don't live very close... but i do consider these girls some of my best friends. i love you janeen, lyndsie, brooke, holly, rachel, and amy!!!

rachel and me (:

brooke, holly, mem and rachel.. yeah sometimes we don't get asked to dance.. hahaa but mostly we were just avoiding this kid named trick.. bless his heart.

hunter, me, holly, lyndsie, brooke, rachel, and corey. this is pretty much the gang.. we hung out quite a bit (:

PIZZA NIGHT!!!!

umm where the heck is lyndsie...?

hunter and me (:

again with the not getting asked to dance.. hahaa

corey and me (:

hunter and corey! hahaa these boys are the best! i miss them..