eee efff why....?

well folks i'm off on an adventure called eee eff why!!  (efy) i'm quite excited. i'm flying out to nauvoo all by myself.., should be interesting knowing how much i struggle and how often i get lost.. but hey what do you do? it's not like i can live in a box my whole life.. i have to get out there!! but i'm sorta hoping okay scratch that.. i really hope i meet a real handsome young lad (: just saying..

ouch

sometimes i go boating (:
and i absolutely l.o.v.e it.
sometimes i wakeboard.
sometimes i sorta jump the wake..
then sometimes... i catch my edge.
and for those of you who have never wakeboarded.. that means.. you take a nice slap to the water.
yeah let's just say..

i have the worst headache ever.. that's from the slap and the wakeboard hitting the back of my head. (i have a pretty sweet lump...) i have never been this sore in my life.. and i'm not talking i just ran without stretching sore. i'm talking my head feels like it's gonna fall off. and my whole upper body aches. it's quite lovely. ohh and check out the bruise on my arm. sorry they're not the best pictures..

but even with all this pain.. i'd do it all over again. because well i love it (:

i'm a bit obsessed with this blog..

this is adorable

bored out of my mind

sometimes all my friends are either out of town.. or having to fulfill family obligations.. or plain just don't text me back..

so this is what i resort to....

when breanna gets bored:

1: 4 loads of laundry

2: organize / clean shoe shelf

3: organize / 409 the counter in the laundry room

4: dust the laundry room

5: sweep laundry room

6: wash walls and doors in the laundry room

7: do the dishes

8: organize / clean the snack cupboard 

9: organize / clean the spice cupboard

so as you can see.. i resorted to deep cleaning my house for like six hours.. 

it was kind of relaxing 

even if i felt a bit like cinderella.. minus the fact that i decided to clean on my own free will.. and i don't have an evil cat. or step sisters. or even a step mom.

but what i'm getting at.. is... it's summer why the heck am i cleaning?? i need to do something with my life!!

someone please call me tomorrow.. so i don't end up cleaning everything else... 

flash back

so last night he called me. and let's just say. well it made me realize how much i miss talking to him. and i don't care what all my friends say right now. because i couldn't help but have butterflies.. a lot of butterflies.

someday this will be me

sometimes i'm a creep and i stalk blogs.. like the utah bride blog.. and i find this and i think that is going to be me one day!

the boating pictures not the golf..

just had to be clear

what just happened...?

okay something weird is going on.. i woke up at 6 this morning.. ummm what the heck?? i can't remember the last time i woke up at 6  voluntarily.. but i'm not saying this is a bad thing. honestly it feels kind of good. i mean i went for a nice run. (because it wasn't in the heat of the day like it usually is when i wake up.) now i have a whole day of adventuring. i feel like i waste my whole day when i wake up at 11 or noon.

(:

he's. back. (:

ponderings

what is this feeling? the feeling i get when i invite him over. i don't know what to call this feeling.. it's almost as if there are to many feelings inside the feeling..

it's like a mix of..

- i'm about to through up.
-feeling like i just ran a marathon because my heart's racing.
-feeling like i have to pee. even though i just went.
-i'm shaky in the knees
-wondering why the heck i just did this to myself? because i'm just gonna make a fool of myself.
-I'm pacing the room. i mean honestly who does that?
-how many times have i looked in the mirror the last five minutes?
-excitement.. or am i mistaking that for anxiety?
-is my house really this cold?? or am i just super nervous?
-is he going to think i'm a freak?
-what's my mother going to say this time? or worse my sister that can't keep her mouth shut..
-sick my hands are clammy
-do i look okay...?
-hopefully he doesn't notice how nervous i am..
-does he feel the same?
-someone PLEASE REMOVE ALL THE MIRRORS OUT OF MY SIGHT!!
-is it weird i feel the need to wear a hoodie in the middle of july?
-holy cow this has been the longest twenty minutes of my life!!
-i swear i'm having heat flashes..
-my skin feels as if a thousand electric particles are accelerating a crossed it's surface.

yeah.. can someone please tell me why i love having this feeling..

forget it!

life isn't about being perfect. life is about trying to get there. life is about living in the moment. it's about learning to dance in the rain. don't get caught up in the moment thinking you'll look stupid, because most likely you will look stupid. but who cares...? FORGET IT. stop looking out the window.. and just have fun (:

gravity

remember this guy well... i'd like to report that he's ancient history. but unfortunately  he isn't.  it would so happen that he's completely out of my life. and i'm okay with it. and then he decides to waltz back in. you would think that any other girl would just laugh, be angry, and say sorry pal you missed that train. but i guess i'm not any other girl. because when he came waltzing back in. i fell head over heels all over again. i am just saying i think i'm a complete idiot. there's nothing else to it. so please just pray for me.. so i can get out of this with some dignity.. hahaa i'm kidding.. but seriously i don't want to be that stupid silly lovestruck girl who's just gonna get her heart broken..

it's so patriotical

sometimes i go up to my best friends cabin (:
it was a party and a half times ten!

we only had a few minor injuries..

the injured 

1. kinsey- she almost got her finger severed off. we were just trying to put that couch in the trailer...
2.  bre- umm i got nailed by the swing.. i was just trying to be helpful to kinsey's cousin.. and in return he kicks it at me.. yeah my arm kills.
3. todd aka toff- almost broke his nose.. but hey it was his fault he had it coming!! he tried to scare me and kinsey and ended up getting smacked in the face with some cushions.. hahaa
4. mckoy- the poor kid got bit by a bug on the four wheeler ride.. 

we had a few epic experiences as well..

the experiences 

1. i went down the swing that's like fifteen feet tall
2. I ATE A FISH EYE!! (not a joke)
3. i ate a fish head
4. helped kinsey start a fire 
5. watched movies
6. went on four wheeler rides
7. rosted mallows 
8. saw bambi 
9. watched the boys fish 

so all i'm saying is thanks kinsey (: it was a blast!! even if you still think i was bored out of my mind. i will just tell you one more time I WAS NOT BORED.. hahaa i love you

ohh and special thanks to chief wannascalpia 

things i miss

1. mom
2. dad
3. denver
4. zebbie
5. my bed
6. friends
7. sulivan (car)
8. enzo (boat)
9. my room
10. kara, scott, will, and eli
11. home
12. BOYS
13. t-bone (dog)
14. cell service
15. radio... kinda...

well i guess i'm a bit homesick... but i'm still having fun out in the wilderness of nevada.

warning use at your own risk!

a toothbrush.. a harmless object. am i right? right! NO i'm wrong. something is seriously wrong with anyone who would argue that it is harmless. seeing that i now have a fat lip from one. yeah i know i struggle a bit more than the average person.. but it still could have happened to anyone! i'm just letting you all know that toothbrushes are dangerous!! use at your own risk!!

but really i do want everyone of you to use a toothbrush cause that is a little sketchy if you don't.. i mean that is soooo yucky when people do not brush their teeth. i'm just saying be careful when using them so you don't end up with a fat lip...

have you ever wondered why it's called a toothbrush? you don't just brush one tooth.. at least i would hope. but in most cases i assume people brush all their teeth.. so therefore shouldn't it be called a teethbrush?

anyway just one last thought. maybe it would help to turn your phone on silent so it doesn't go off and scare the crap out of you. making you jump a mile. therefore that would be the reason my toothbrush and or teethbrush happened to jam my lip into my tooth... but then again i do struggle more than the average person...

will i ever learn...?

i should have never got my hopes up. i should have listened to my gut feeling. but i wanted so badly for things to work out.. and possibly go back to how they used to be. i've probably been watching to many chick flicks and reading to many romances.. because they all end up having happy endings.. everything always works out.. stupid movies and books.. hahaa

roughing it in the wilderness

the car ride up (: hahaa fun stuff. please notice the pole on the left side. i got to know this pole quite well. it kept banging the window right in my ear. i almost went deaf.. okay not really. but one time it kinda tapped my shoulder.. and i thought it was a creeper man... hahaa

 just some of my favorite people (: did i mention that this picture was taken while we were supposed to be listening to devotional stuff... ohh well...

yes it looks like i'm wearing a bump it.. big deal..

 just partying (:

the white trash shade... hahaa

 talk about bad hair day...

we didn't know what was down there.. no one else did either.. just look at the spray painted wall.. so yeah we went down there (:

 sometimes i get cold.. so i wrap myself up like a burrito... hahaa

 nutella fight... obviously shelby won...

 sometimes we fight.. and i give her a bruise... sorry...

 is it just me or to i look like i could possibly be floating there..

ummm yeah yellow tent was by far the party tent (: just saying

i love girls camp (: