ohh the places you'll go.

i'm moving. 

and i thought i was ready.

but,

now i'm not so sure.

i'm not good at goodbyes.

and i'm definitely not ready to say goodbye to all my friends.

this hit me yesterday. 

as i was having maybe my last summer party with some of my close friends.

which i really hope it wasn't the last.

hopefully when i come home on weekends.. i'll still see all these hooligans.

because i really will miss them all terribly!

my life is going to change so much in the next couple weeks, it's unfathomable. 

i'm feeling a mix of emotions.

i'm scared out of my mind.

i'm so excited i can't contain it.

i'm anxious i'll be lonely.

i'm ready to adventure.

i'm scared i'll fail.

i'm dying to live a life of my own.

i'm not ready to let go of the life i live now.

i want to meet new people.

i don't want to lose the people i'm leaving behind.

i want to be independent.

i still want to be dependent.

i think, i'm going to be okay with the move, eventually. 

just not at this particular moment. 

here's to the new adventure. ready or not.

college.

i'm now officially a student of utah state university. 

and i think i'm gonna like it there.

and i'm already in love with the art department. 

especially tj. 

in the first ten minutes i knew this guy... this is what he said to me.

"girl! you know how to dress yourself!! you got some swag!!  but us art people always know how to dress our selves." 

he even had a nick name for me by the end of registration.

swazzagirl. 

he should be my best friend. 

i also start training for my job in logan on monday. 

i can't wait to move up to logan. it's calling my name!!! 

to bad i have to get my wisdom teeth out on tuesday... 

so it'll be at least another week before the move.

hey look!

i'm in (:
i'm gonna be an aggie!!

blast from the past

i spent two hours with my mother today. looking at all her old pictures. had a few great laughs. discovered that my dad had a creeper mustache. also that my grandma was gorgeous! and people still make the same faces now that they did way back then. plus we found that certain people look like people. like zebbie looks like sarah. but there were some that sarah looked like her kids. and hannah looks like heather. but anyway.. all i'm saying is... one day i'm going to have a 17 year old. and they will look at all my pictures. and laugh and make fun. and that's mind boggling to think about..