ohh the places you'll go.

i'm moving. 

and i thought i was ready.

but,

now i'm not so sure.

i'm not good at goodbyes.

and i'm definitely not ready to say goodbye to all my friends.

this hit me yesterday. 

as i was having maybe my last summer party with some of my close friends.

which i really hope it wasn't the last.

hopefully when i come home on weekends.. i'll still see all these hooligans.

because i really will miss them all terribly!

my life is going to change so much in the next couple weeks, it's unfathomable. 

i'm feeling a mix of emotions.

i'm scared out of my mind.

i'm so excited i can't contain it.

i'm anxious i'll be lonely.

i'm ready to adventure.

i'm scared i'll fail.

i'm dying to live a life of my own.

i'm not ready to let go of the life i live now.

i want to meet new people.

i don't want to lose the people i'm leaving behind.

i want to be independent.

i still want to be dependent.

i think, i'm going to be okay with the move, eventually. 

just not at this particular moment. 

here's to the new adventure. ready or not.