happy halloween (:

here's you some holiday spirit (: zebbie as Helga G. Pataki. and me as mulan (not a geisha..)

hope you've all had a lot of tricks and treats (:

nightmare before christmas

first of all i adore this movie (: ask grandma! she'll tell you about how every time i went to stay at her house as a kid, she'd let me watch a movie before bed. and it was always this movie! and yes i'm a little sad that all the creeper kids wear jack on there clothes, and what not. because it almost  ruins the movie for me. but that's not really the point.

seeing as it's halloween tomorrow.. i thought i'd mix it up a bit. and share with you my christmas list.




1. a pet iguana  2. and vintage styled clothes, shoes, and accessories.

that is all (:

so have a happy halloween folks (:

and if you come by trick-or-treating to my humble abode. you will find i'm playing this song.

ohh and i'm dressing up as mulan (: i'll sare a picture soon (:

hmm it's saturday..

i have a couple options
 -stake dance
-birthday party.
-or something else.

he texted me asking me what i was doing tonight. so i'm thinking he's gonna ask me to hang out!! so i get all dolled up.

and i haven't felt this pretty in awhile..
(i look better in real life...the pictures aren't that great..)

but then he doesn't even text me back.. loser.

so i got all dolled up for nothing...







so therefore it's either birthday party.. (where i wont know anyone..)
or stake dance (where i'll have to get un-dolled up. and put on  a costume and go dance with 14 year olds)
or drive up to grandmas house, to get zebbies costume ( sounds pretty anti-social if you ask me.,)

what i'm getting at, is i'm annoyed with this boy, he got my hopes up. and now here i am not knowing what to do with my saturday night.

sooo..guess what

HE KNOWS WHO I AM!!!!! 


but who's making it a big deal?? (:

Heartache

How do I explain it. When I don't know what to say?

now what?

i don't know what to do with myself.  i don't have any homework.. it's a miracle

someone should call me up and we'll play (:

complicated..?

well folks remember those stories.. it's been so long since i've blogged that i can't even remember them. all i have to say is i hate the end of term. so much. it's full of cramming all that last minute work in, to bump up the grade. and there is also the mountain of projects that are all due like on the same day. (i swear the teachers conspire with each other...) and with all this stress it results in 1. i'm breaking out bad! i hate acne 2. my room is a disaster because i don't have time to clean it. and when i do have time i take a nap instead. (i can't function when my room is a mess. so if i seem a bit edgy and off that would be why. 3. i am lacking sleep. i need the weekend. pronto. good thing it's wendnesday..  two more days.


but to make things more complicated..

remember this boy well as of lately i find myself wanting him to notice me. and i quite enjoy talking to him in class when we laugh about our funny memories.. and sometimes i go to visit him. and i get butterflies, and my knees shake.

do i really want to feel this way? after what happend the last time? all my friends hate him. i hated him up until like this week. does he deserve a second chance?? is this even going anywhere or am i over analyzing the situation...?

i don't want to deal with this right now. i was finally finding this other boy but he has no idea who i even am.. and i'm to scared to talk to him..

do i pass up an opportunity with one boy. to have a higher chance with a boy that has no idea i even exist.

i am over analyzing i'm sure.. but this is everything going through my brain.. as of this week..

sorry if i sound scatterbrained.. i just am.. give me a break. i'm riding a roller coaster of emotions.. it's fine.