photo attack.

 after 4 years of pushing myself to go to seminary, and doing more make up work than i should have had to do. I GRADUATED!!

 during seminary graduation.. we learned my brother can't be left alone. because we return home noticing my dog has an attempted mullet..

 i found out what it's like to be a muscle man. yay dry suits!

boating season here i come!!!

 finally my senior pictures were taken.. after months of asking for them.

and yes i got heels. and yes.. it makes me almost as tall as my dad. and i'm not going to say how tall that is... but i love them.








so that's pretty much my life as of late.

just a little something for the pain.

just a little something for the pain

no i'm not color blind, i know the world is black and white

well everybody hurts, that's where we're all the same.

it's nine o'clock on a saturday

he keeps me up after late phone calls

when you call he doesn't answer

you tied off your arms with only pretty charms

if i were you i'd be taking it easy

dance all night play all day

you held my hand and walked me home

left everything behind i ever knew

when sky blue gets dark enough

well, you went uptown ridin' in your limousine 

here's your letter.

i wonder how i ever made it through a day

he's got tattoos and piercings 

all the waiters in your grand cafe 

on the other side of the street in knew

easy come easy go, that's just how you live

you my friend 

i took a chance, i took a shot

we had never known about the days to come

it sure looks like this love is winding  down

hermit crabs in colored shells

alone in this house again tonight

i've been thinking about you and how we used to be

forever could never be long enough for me

don't shut me out

obviously i'm in a little pain.. caused by wrecking my car, and having a four wheeler mishap. so i thought i'd just lay in bed and write a poem by putting my ipod on shuffle and typing the first line of each song.

i don't know why i love doing this. but i do. and it surprises me every time how it actually can mesh and fit together even with the most random songs. 

close call.

i wrecked my car today. it was awful. 

.

my heart is broken. but not in a way it's been broke before. i'm not even really sure i can explain it. but i'm going to try. because i need to vent about it. i can't let it weigh down on me anymore. i broke one of my best friends hearts. and in the process of breaking his. mine was broken. (not that i have a right to even be sad about this.. after all it is my fault..)  it could have been those small things you said to me that caused me to choke on tears, wondering why? why on earth you'd say that. after all we'd been through. or it could have been the fact that when i saw you at school for the first time since we'd ended things, that i still got that giddy flip flop feeling when i saw you. only to have it wrenched from me, like a bully stealing candy from a small toddler. because i realized, you didn't want to talk to me.. i thank you for being polite and at least saying hi to me. and showing me your awful sunburn. i am so grateful for that small tender mercy you gave me. maybe it's just killing me, because i thought i was okay. but in all reality.. i'm not.. i've been an emotional wreck today. crying on and off. realizing i've lost one of my very best friends. and knowing it's my fault. 

drama.

i didn't ask for this to happen. 

it just.

did.

bored?

i don't know about you, but these are the largest grapes i've ever laid my eyes on.

they are bigger than my eyes... that's awkward.

happy thursday (:

stress.

i think i might be under a bit of stress.

my eyebrows now lack some essential qualities. like. hmmm looking symmetrical. 

finding shoes for prom has turned into a mood rendering experience.. my heart is honestly set on heels. but i can't bring myself to wear them. because i can't bring myself to be taller than my date. but remember how my heart is set on them? that makes finding flats... nearly impossible. 

my mother may or may not have embarrassed me so much that the effect resulted in breaking down in tears. (i'm totally going to blame that on the fact that t.o.m. is visiting.)

i can't bring myself to log on to skyward, in fear of what i might find there. 

senior pictures? i have no idea where to do them. ideas? 

worrying that i'm going to die on ragnar because i never have time to run long runs. 

anyone have a stress reliever?