last friday night

listen to this song.

sometimes... tori and i jam out to this song in the parking lot of maceys. no worries. 

smitten...? possibly

so maybe you awkwardly held my hand.
and maybe i kinda liked it.

changes

i needed a change in my life.
so i changed my blog.
hahaa


plus also.
i love my mother (:
we sometimes fight about what to say to boys i'm texting.
she's trying to get this guy to take me to the football game. it's not gonna happen.
hahaa!
she told me if i didn't answer the boy in five minutes. she wouldn't get me a costa vida salad.
BLACK MAIL!!!
hahaa
ohhhh boys (: gotta love them!

t.o.m.

t.o.m.

time. of. month.

i hate this time of the month. a lot.
wanna know why?
i get so tired. i can barely keep my eyes open.
i am an emotional wreck. honestly the weirdest things will just set me off.
my body hurts. everywhere.
cramps. you are of the devil.
ohh and making three or four trips to the bathroom. before lunch.
i don't care about looking cute. so i look like crap.
also i break out.

enough said.

a thought

maybe it wasn't such a great idea to go for a run considering
a) i have an upset stomach
b) i ran harder than i usually do.. because i'm in one of those moods where i'm just frustrated at the world. (i hate these moods)
c) i have t.o.m issues for those of you who don't understand t.o.m (time. of. month.)
d) i'm used to running at 530 when it's cold. yeah it's 85 degrees outside. and so running that makes it about 100 degrees.


yeah all these factors ended in me..
a) dry heaving and nearly throwing up.
b) tears of pain and frustration
c) getting to my hill and seeing attractive baseball players outside. and forcing myself to sprint up the hill so they don't think i'm wimpy. even though a couple minutes previous i was close to throwing up.
d) running straight to the bathroom on arrival of my home. (i didn't vomit. but i almost wish i would have. cause you know how sometimes it almost just makes your tummy feel better just to get it out.)


i'm praying tomorrow is a better day.  



p.s.

this doesn't really help with my goal to be more positive and see the good in things. and be nice. and what not. i'll try to be better listeners. because i really know how old it gets to read those blogs that all it says is whiny, negative, my life stinks, boo hoo, sob story, junk. because if your life is so terrible. get off your butt and do something about it.

so imma do that. get off my butt. and go do some good in my life. okay.

dear boy,
i'd like to report that i'm over you.
but i'm not.
love, bre

a fresh frenzy

5:30 AM runs are the best thing that has ever happened in my life. (:

it makes my day go well. a lot more smooth.

i feel great.

it's worth the sacrifice of sleep. enough said.

ha especially when i go with annika. and we talk about boys. see creepers. and then find out there was a guy found dead at the library. so we freak out, cause we could have died!! hahaa

ohh and skipping assemblies is a great thing. i learned all sorts of stuff. hahaa like..
-osculate. means kissing. ohh but the real definition would be wrestling of the lips.
good times brayden and kylee. good times. hahaa
(i guess you had to be there...)

my ghostly ipod turning on in the middle of last period durning a test. nothing like hearing john mayers voice coming out of my backpack (: hahaa


and i'm going to mary poppins at the capitol theatre tonight with the fam. it's gonna be a party and a half times ten and i cannot wait!

all i'm saying is.

today is a good day. (: